The Breast Situation

Alright, so I went to my appointment, which was a total waste of time! I still have a weird mass, but she can't do anything right now. I did find out that I am probably not going to be able to have my surgeries when I want them. Apparently, it's not like Burger King, your way right away. I had told the doctor that I was planning on being done breast feeding Kennady by December. This, is not the case; she is still attached to the tit more often than not! We suspect a milk allergy, so nursing is the best option for her at this point. I can't even think about having the breast tissue removed until I am as dry as my Thanksgiving turkey, I mean a desert! The boob guru told me that it takes three to six months for your breasts to get back to normal. In the back of my mind I was cursing at her, "Back to normal my ass!" After kiddos your boobs deflate and go from OO to UU. I guess that's a perk of having the twins removed, literally!

Back to the boobs, I am so disappointed. I guess it is all for the breast though. I am still planning on meeting with the plastic surgeon just to see what some of the options are. I am leaning towards some porno boobs, if possible! Heck, if they are going to be fake, I might as well. Go big or go home, right? Naw, seriously though, I guess this gives me time to really think about what I want. It will probably have to happen after I get back to Alaska. This poses so many other problems, but ya gotta play the hand yer dealt. I need to consider what type of mastectomies and what type of reconstruction. I have come across a few support groups online for those lucky carriers of the BRCA gene. I think I have already been blocked because I keep asking for people to send me pictures! They must think I am a pervert.

Because I have the desire to see pictures of reconstructed breasts, I was thinking, maybe in addition to my boob blog, I should start a picture journal of my journey through this process that I can share with other women. I would need a super creative title, any ideas?